I spent the iWeekend iWorking on iTunes for my iTouch and my iHusband’s iPad. It was iSomething I expected to take an iHour or iSo on iSaturday, but instead it iTook iAlmost 4 iHours on iSaturday and iAnother 3 iHours iToday. I think iEverything is iOK iNow but I can’t be iSure.
iTechnology and iMen. Can’t iLive with iThem, can’t iLive without iThem.
Years ago, when I was beginning my married life, a friend who was already married for 20 years told me she thought there should be showers for people who had been married a long time so that they could get new towels and sheets. I now find myself at the same milestone and I finally realize what she meant. Many (if not all) of my towels were gifts when I got married almost 20 years ago. Although I have several sets of towels, I tend to wash them and put them right back out instead of some intricate system of swapping them out for the towels-in-waiting in the closet.
I am embarrassed to tell you this but why stop now considering everything else I reveal on this blog, but several years ago I bought some really expensive towels at an amazing sale. In true fashion, I put them away “for later”. Well later came about a year ago but I still waited until the beginning of this year to start using them. I washed them and put them out and my husband asked me for several weeks afterwards if the doctor had called with some dire test results for him after a check-up. Why else would his wife of 20 years be using new, luxurious towels that you actually could not see through?
After washing the new towels for the first time, I realized they had started fraying and there were many thread pulls that needed to be cut. Every time I’ve washed them since, I find the same thing.
Why are my almost 20-year-old run-of-the-mill towels in better shape than my brand new expensive ones? Why do I have to “trim” my brand new expensive towels before I hang them back up after washing?
If you get an invitation for my “I’ve Been Married 20 Years” shower, please go directly to the cheap linens section of your local discount store and buy me the cheapest pair of towels you can find. And I’ll use them for another 20 years. No trimming required.
I put make-up on today. The first time in 13 days. And I left the house on my own for several hours. It was a cool, crisp beautiful Autumn day; everyone is now wearing coats. The strong winds made the leaves fall quicker than they would have of their own accord. People’s homes are decorated for Halloween — when did October 31st become so big???
All this would have been going on if I had stayed home but grieving for my lost job is over; it’s time for me to return to the land of the living AND the land of the employed.
I actually wrote this sentence to my dear friend J today and she said it should be the title of my novel. God only knows when that will be written so I didn’t want it to go to waste.
Don’t judge me.
Begin with that most terrifying of all things, a clean slate.
Then look, every day, at the choices you are making,
and when you ask yourself why you are making them,
find this answer:
For me, for me.
— Anna Quindlen, author and journalist
The decision was agonizing and I never imagined being back where I am at this moment in time. But the mental stress over the last few weeks made me realize that there was no choice to be made; for my health and well being I needed to get out. Boom!
Here we go again.
Searching For A New Job Is A Full Time Job . . .
“Life is fluid. You have to let go and move on.”