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2016: The Yearr Of More Sweet, Less Bitter

Posted on January 1, 2016 By Sister Rain

Happy New Year!

My wish, my hope, my dream is always the restoration of my full sight. But that is not something I can make happen, that’s in the hands of medical professionals, scientists and maybe technology too. So I can’t consider it a resolution. Yes, the “R” Word, thrown around this time of year as if it was deflated footballs.

Until 20/20 returns, what I want, what I need is to be okay with the loss of my vision. I’m sure that sounds odd. How could anyone be okay with such a thing? Let me try to explain it to both of us. This has only become important to me in the last few weeks so I am still trying to understand it myself.

Okay means acceptance, agreement, satisfactory. I am living my life to the best of my ability. I laugh. I have fun. Both genuine. I power through the challenges with hopefully some small degree of grace. But it’s not okay with me that I am now legally blind.

I go out with friends and I keep things going at home. I workout. In 2015 reading came back into my life via technology. I blog. I do most things I did before November 27, 2012 except drive and have a career in corporate America. But nothing I do is the same as it was before I woke up blind. Everything, and I mean EVERYTHING, is more difficult and bittersweet.

I love having dinner with friends, but it makes me sad that I can’t see their faces across the table from me. I love being at my nephew’s baseball games, but I can’t see him play or follow the action without my husband’s play-by-play. I love to travel but I think it might literally kill me to be in Sedona and not be able to see the beautiful red rocks. I want the bitter taste to go away and the sweetness of each of my life’s moments be all that I taste.

The execution of a resolution requires willpower, strength, commitment, support, a conscious decision to alter a behavior and a change in how you think. I have to stop comparing everything to when I was fully sighted. I have to enjoy the amazing life I have. Sounds simple, doesn’t it? As easy as quitting smoking and losing weight.

So that’s what I am thinking most about on the first day of this new year. I don’t know if I’ll get there in 2016. I really hope that I do. But if I don’t, that’s okay. Last year’s “R” Word? Self-compassion.

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