I spent the night in pain with a new injury, feeling knife stabs every time I rolled over. This morning I woke up really angry about it, and tired, manifesting in an I don’t give a crap about anything attitude. I have written something other than this blog and connected with a professional media person to review it and give me their thoughts. I had intended to send it two weeks ago, then last Monday, but kept tweaking it because I was afraid to let another living soul lay eyes on it. Yes, I know this blog is available to the world but strangers don’t scare me. Well, the guy who likes to stand in my way on my daily walk scares me, but I’m pretty sure he’s not reading this blog.
Starting a new week not feeling so great was the kick I needed to send my creation to someone to poke, prod and dissect, the same treatment I will probably receive today if I can get a doctor’s appointment. I like to play doctor, on the internet, people, but there are good reasons there are experts in every field and if you’re lucky enough to find one you trust you have to put yourself in their hands.
If you’ve been putting something off, in honor of my boo-boo, do it. Make the call, send the email, meet someone for coffee. Just like a medical issue, letting it go is only going to make you feel worse and pretty soon it’s all you can think about. You’ll feel so much better once it’s done, even if you’re still nervous to hear results. I am not always good at this, fear can steer my actions, or non-actions I should say, more often than not. But when I think about it I realize that I’m never really sorry once I do something I have been putting off.
I was going to title this post, “Pus: A Catalyst” but thought better of it. There are times when mulling something over before acting is the right thing to do. But no amount of pondering will ever make you less frightened, it will only increase your anxiety and decrease your progress. Do Monday. Before it does you.
