I said something to my husband over the weekend that has been on my mind for a long time now. I told him that I feel that as far as my career goes, my best days are behind me. I certainly didn’t feel this way when I was still working, I thought I was still moving in an upward direction. As I have mentioned, I made a career change a few years ago and it could not have been going better until I found out my company was closing.
Now, with all the time that’s passed, it’s hard to imagine that someday in the future, the NEAR future, I’ll travel again, I’ll create something out of nothing, I’ll make a difference.
I don’t say this in a “woe is me” kind of way, more as a factual thing, at least in my mind. I realize this goes against the power of positive thinking and that everyone says the best thing you can do is to stay positive. I do try, but when I really analyze what I’m thinking, which I do all the time, I realize this is what I sometimes believe.
How to turn that around I’m not sure. I have many more years of work ahead of me, and I certainly don’t want the years that came before to have been the pinnacle of my career.
I hope I remember this moment the next time I find myself sliding my laptop bag under the seat in front of me, as I secure my seat belt and check for the closest exit.
And that’s what I have to focus on. Me and my career in that plane, taking off again.